Do i continue to fight fate??

I err, a lot!

Guess that makes me more human than others. I am an emotional fool, too honest to be good. The combination leads to vocal outbursts ever so often. These are short comings that drag one down the social ladder a great deal. For years, I have waited, looked and sought for someone, who will bring inner peace in me, who'll complete me, fill in that void which leads to me being restless.

The ones who wanted or desire to be there, are not the ones i set out looking for. The few i thought fit the bill, were looking elsewhere, seeking something else....

Now i guess i'm getting weary of waiting. Would it be wise to just accept what fate has in store for you? Even though that is not what u've spent years waiting for? Is it fool hardy to fight fate? Is that what destiny has been trying to tell me all along? That only that is due to me, which i do not seek?? Shall i give up hope??

the book and the cover

I put up a status this morning on one of the social sites - how another book i picked up by its cover turned into a lousy read.

While this has been true on a lot of occasions. Today, it had nothing to do with books or their covers. I was referring to something altogether different this morning. It was about how we seek out people and people us. It was based on an exchange of communication last night.

Surprisingly not a single friend of mine thought it meant anything other than what it ostensibly reflected. Am i just smarter than the rest? i know, not. Are they just plain stupid? i think, not. So then y didn't they see through what i wrote? More importantly, why did i not write it in plain and simple language had i wanted them to know the words between the lines? Why do i now dissect that they are unable to read what i had myself so well managed to suppress???

Why these mind games with the self??